Eh, I guess this journal (that maybe a handful of people read) needs some less negative posts and something that's general. Cause Unlike my journal, I'm not ALWAYS negative and depressed.

So the last couple of months I have gotten quit abunch of games (all of which are over a year old, so nothing NEW and Current.) With all of them I got what I expected with most of them. Except two games.

The first game being Splinter Cell: Double Agent. I was a fan of the original 3 games, (though found them to be kinda hard and rather frustrating at points) and I always knew this game exsisted. I saw ever EB games seemed to have Many copies of it, and it was rather cheap everywhere I looked. And judging by trend, the cheaper and larger amount of a used game, the chances it sucks to some point. So one day a few weeks ago I felt like something new, and decided to pick it up. I thought "What the hell, $15, why not?" So I bought it, and started playing it. And right away it felt like a good old fashion Splinter Cell game. But once the game progressed I realised that this game had somethings the other ones didn't. First off, CHOICE. You had objectives that depending how you fulfill them, will effect later events and characters. Another feature I liked about it, was the story. It was alot deeper, and more complex I thought. And it was good. So untill I beat this game, and got majority of the achievements for it, I was rather addicted to this game. Which I rather like when I just get Really into a game. It doesn't happen alot for me. Now I'm not saying this is the BEST game, no far from it. But definatly a good game, that I think is under-rated by some people.

The other game is in a similar spot. I found it for $10 in a Walmart discount bin. This game was The Simpsons Game. Again.. I thought, "$10, I like Simpsons, and I want some new games, so why not.." And honestly I was not disapointed. Many people would automatically dismiss this game as a kid-game and therefore Crap. Not true. Yes, it is child friendly, and has mindless button mashing and rather easy to achieve goals. It's still fun none the less. I think the main thing that made this game enjoyable was the Writing. It was very humorous, the whole game was just making fun of other games otu there. Which I love spoofs. And then there were points where it just got so crazy, but in a good way, that I just loved it. Like The Simpson's meeting Matt Groeining (sp?) and him ending up some evil genius. I found that hilarious. As well with the one level where it completely rips off the old school Pokemon game's battle screens, that was hilarious..and clever. And the last level, was SO random, it was genious. Playing DDR against God himself, to the tune of Rock You Like a Hurricane. I've seen some pretty great end battles.. but that one takes the cake for most Epic End Battle in a game. Without a doubt. I think any fan of The Simpsons will enjoy this game.. it seems to have many elements of different games, and isn't pointed towards just one crowd. Definatly another game that is very Under-rated.



As for non-Video game related things. Not much worth reporting about in my life. EXCEPT for one thing. As of today, I am now legally able to drive on my own. (muwhahaha) So I'm feeling pretty good because of that. Had my first drive alone tonight, and it was great.

I'm tired of this world.
I'm tired of being surrounded by people who don't care about anything but themselves.
I'm tired of my life being dictated by family, friends, and society.
I'm tired of feeling alienated.
I'm tired of caring.
I'm tired of our corrupt government.
I'm tired of the media controlling our world.
I'm tired of people trying to be someone they aren't.
I'm tired of feeling sad.
I'm tired of feeling mad.
I'm tired of feeling happy.
I'm tired of emotions.
I'm tired of losing this never ending game called 'love'.
I'm tired of putting my life on hold for someone else.
I'm tired of being dissapointed.
I'm tired of always going back.
I'm tired of thinking differently.
I'm tired of being stuck in the past.
I'm tired of worrying about the future.
I'm tired of today.
I'm tired of failure.
I'm tired of other people's success's.
I'm tired of money.
I'm tired of poverty.
I'm tired of war.
I'm tired of religion.
I'm tired of people.
I'm tired of this world...

"It's all a joke. All a fucking joke." - The Comedien [Watchmen]

That's all life is, isn't it? A joke. Everything we preseve as meaningful, it's all meaningless, it's all a sick joke. People live their lives trying to please a "god", or they try to amount riches that they will never end up using, or they dedicate their lives to science and try to come up with "real" answers to all of lifes questions.
But in the end, what does any of this accomplish? In my opinion, nothing. In the end, there is no inner truth, there is only death. No one knows what lays beyond death. I for one, don't believe there is anything. People believe death to be a great voyage, or a transition from one life to another. I don't think life is nearly as complicated or deep as any of those. Death is the end. Nothign more, nothing less.
When I think about life, and our species. Or any species really. I can not see an over all point. We are born, live for about 70 years, reproduce, and then die. Then repeat in the next generation. Are we getting anywhere? Some might say we are. I say not.
In my opinion, the meaning of life, is to reproduce and continue on our pointless species. That's our natural instincts. So then, if that's the meaning of life, why do we feel the need to Force everyone of our species to memorize useless facts.
Where's the point in that?
To the universe, our species, our entire life line of the human race, is nothing more then a fraction of a dot. When our time comes, it will not be noticed by the universe.

Most likely, most people who read this (which isn't many) will disagree. I've grown used to feeling like I'm the only one who thinks the way I do. Maybe it's a curse, maybe it's a gift. Who knows. When it comes to relating to people, I often can relate to people who society deem as "evil" or "mentally unhealthy". Does that mean I will become like one of those people. Only time can can answer such a question.


"In my opinion, the exsistence of life is a highly over-rated phenominon" - Dr. Manhattan [Watchmen]

Haven't updated here in awhile. I'm still kicking relativly, don't worry. I haven't been doing much drawing as of late, but I think I have a couple of things that need uploading.
I'll get aroudn to it sometime in the near future (seeing as it's summer now, I have more free time.)

So what's new in life? Not a hell of alot. School is finished, but I have to go back in Sept. seeing as I didn't graduate. (Not enough service hours, and I probably failed english) But I don't care all that much to be honest.

Current Video Game Addictions:
Left 4 Dead; Awsome zombie killing game, but it lacks a story line. But who cares,ZOMBIES!

Lego Batman; Lego games are always awsome, so of course mixing it with Batman would be a great idea. Hehe, I made a Pimp-Lepricon

Dead Space; Zombies-in-space. Good idea, works well in game formate as well. And since there is little health in the game, it actually makes the game abit more frightening because I am more likely to die. It's also lovelingly gory and easy to dismember enemies, and random corpses.

Current Music Addictions:
Baptized In Blood, All Shall Perish, Maylene and the Sons of Disaster, Killswitch Engage (new album)

Current Reading Addictions:
pfft.. I don't read. Though I did finally buy the graphic novel, Watchmen. And shit is it good.

A great man once said; "Time is irrelevant"
To many, this means nothing.
To me, this means much more then nothing.
It almost means something that can not be described with words.
Irrelevant.
Everything is irrelevent.
A meaningless exsistence born out of pure randomness.
No meaning, no reason, no purpose.
Love, Hate, Family, Friends, Enemies, Money, Education..
Everything.
I can't help but fail to see the point in, well, anything.
In the end, none of it matters.
In the end, nothing matters at all.
In the end, there is nothing and no one.
We live out our exsistence repeating a general guidline,
"Learn, Work, Marry, Reproduce, Die"
Every human has followed the general guidline, though not always perfectly the same, but the basic Live and then Die, is true.
But what is all the point?
Where are we heading to?
Some people say we are leading to "God" or "Heaven"
Others say we are heading towards enlightenment
Others say we are heading to the future, the highest point of our human potential.
I say we are heading to nothing.
Nothing that hasn't been seen already.
A constant loop, where nothing really changes.
Sure, technology and the faces behind them change
But in the greater picture, it's still the same life cycle. Same destiny. Same Fate.
We memorize facts about our history and things about how our world supposibly works. Though can anyone Truelly prove half of that crap true? They say they can, but I doubt them.
We work the majority of our lives to make money in order to live on to another day, to work on for the next day of work, and so on and so forth.
When and where did this idea come from?
Where did the idea of spending over 70% of our life time doing meaningless labour just so you can make the money to survive to the next day. Which you will end up making money for the next day. They eventually die, and leave the money they have made to their children or someone else close to them.
And what does said person usually do? Keeps it, holds it and does the same pointless thing the person before them did. And the pattern repeats over generations.
The cycle is meaningless and pointless.
But why do we do it?
Why do people do anything?
Questions keep being asked,
But answers are never given.

I could keep writing about the irrelevance of exsistence.
But really what will it prove?
Nothing really.
Maybe one person who reads it will take a few moments and think about it.
But not do much more then that.
Do I want people do to more then just that?
Not sure.
Don't care really.


"Cause in the end, everything we are, is just everything we have done."